XXIV - “Just Enough Reason”

There’s someone I know at this bar tonight
And he wants to pretend like 
he doesn’t know he’s the reason
For this difficult season 
I want to time travel through 
 
If I let you take me home tonight 
I’ll be the reason that you fall
Maybe I’m past the point of walking
But I wouldn’t trust myself not to crawl into your bed
Just enough sober to know I shouldn’t 
Just enough lonely to try

Metabolized out my reason, like my body to the beer 

If you’d any sense at all you’d wait for it to clear 

 
So smile at me like you’re none the wiser
And brush my shoulder like the static doesn’t electrify me
Tell me all your jokes I’ll try forever to forget
Walk away so easily like it’s just the end of a shift
Like you don’t know my eyes are still on you

 

XXIII - “Humans, Not Gods”

It’s going to be a hard night 
It started with a long day
And sadness fills the hallways
Along with sweat of our gift
It’s become so apparent 
We’re nothing like the gods they groomed us to be
 
We say the prayers 
as a means to cope with the knowledge in our heads 
We roll the dice
And hope the luck of life ends up on our side
We don’t save lives
But sometimes we’re lucky enough to extend them 
We buy the extra time 
To keep the match off of the wick
 
The screams of the unruly 
The smell of the drips
The crack of the time in a worn out voice
The still of a room of all those who relate 
The sound of metal collapses into the door
The end of a shift you’re longing to ignore 
 
You know it won’t be easy
You know the woes of regret
But you hold yourself steady 
When the tsunami of sadness breaches your shore
We’re trained to keep the fluid on the inside 
They say ‘we’re only human’
But we never really see it that way 

XXII - “Entangled”

Entangled in the moment
souls of a time past
polarized like magnets
My space shifted by the presence of your mass 

A white dwarf 

Up against a red giant 

Just the remnant of what’s left

 
If only I could see into your space
But I can’t get past the edge of your darkness
Everything warped into my view
Except the you in front of me
Lend me all your journals
Let me deep inside your head
Listen to your theories
The lives that you have led
Take me to the places you’ve passed your spirit through 
Show me all the scenes captured in the retina you peer through 
 

Entangled 
In the blackness bound to absorb me
Entangled in
The one thing I know is going to crush me 
Entangled in the theory of your love 

Could I meet you in space
Would it still be too late
The universe would revolve around us
Two masses on the edge of everything 
 
But then you couldn’t hear the sounds, of two souls in love

And there would be no dawn to look up to 

You couldn’t hear the song I sing
You couldn’t hear the sound of the string 
That I bled my fingers into
To make it known to you
 

Here, there’s light to see me 

But you’d be blinded by lust to ever look this way

The things that burn this bright

Never burn for long

And compress everything in the wake

But Here, I can hear every single thing
The tears, the sighs, the sobbing cries
Even the silence of nothing between us
Because the odds of time is between us
Bound to the laws
That keep me in my place
Bound to the fears
That confined me in this space
 

Entangled 
In the blackness bound to absorb me
Entangled in
The one thing I know is going to crush me 
Entangled in the theory of your love 

 
A pull so strong 
Even light can’t get through
You’re the event on my horizon 
And I was merely passing through
 

XXI - “Another Wolf”

You don't really care the who

As long as she keeps you warm

Any body will do

Just another coping mechanism 

On which you rely 

 

You were a wolf in wool

You had so much pull

I let you get so close

It made it easy for you 

To take a bite so deep

 

Now, I'm just the wounded Phoenix

Blending into your dust

I was designed to rise

But even wounds dipped in ash

Can only heal so fast

 

Love use to overflow from this place

But there's a crack draining all that was full

Even though I'm a fish in your pond

I'm parched and dry

In this school of second tries 

 

So bite as deep as you can

You'll only get this one chance

Lie as long as you can

You can only keep the truth hidden so long

Even your wool is bound to shed

 

 

XX - “The She”

The rattle of your phone on the desk

It's after midnight and you pretend not to notice

And you know exactly what I mean

When I say "she needs to give it a rest"

Whiteness covers your face as redness does your eyes

When you finally realize

Two halves won't make us whole

"I'm sorry" won't convince me

To forgive your broken soul

Maybe god can see past

The thing I can't see through

You say "it's so benign" 

A simple cut to the flesh

But now the blood cascades out of control

And you're not good with the pressure 

All the memories of us swirl like regressions

And it's all you can do to keep your head above the depression

Gone like a comet in the night sky

You brace for the explosion but it only fades like scattering rays 

I’m shielded by my atmosphere 

Two halves won't make us whole

"I'm sorry" won't convince me

To forgive your broken soul

Maybe god can see past

The thing I can't see through

I thought you were the kind of guy

Who'd always have my back

Thought you were the kind of guy

Who would never need a take back

But I’m just not the kind of girl

Who’ll ever want a redo