Sleep Where You Lay

 You’re lying still against my floor

Your problems bigger than can be ignored 

In desperation for the air 

You gasp and rasp for the words to describe your despair 

They move through you the way fremitus feels

Slurring words that smell like shame

Seeping in the sweat of your pain

Too far gone to leave your spot

Your makeshift bed of a concrete cot

Awaken to the reality

You can’t sustain the life you’ve got

Some make due and some subdue

Slip from reality

The thin line you’re slipping across

You’re asking for a hand

But I don’t know how to give

You’re begging for forgiveness 

But it’s bitterness that permeates 

My nerves not my bones

You close your eyes so I roll you to your side

You whisper ‘want to die’

And I don’t know if you’re living in the enemies’ lies

Or if you’d just say anything for me to stay

So I just let you sleep where you lay 

Tall grass rising beyond the world I can’t see 

Winds blow, it encloses around me

I wish that you’d just join me hidden beneath

The surface of what earnest eyes see

Me hidden in your gentle face 

Against the ground of your shelter 

 

Pressing hands into my translucent skin

little bones bound to crumble 

did you mean to press this hard 

all the way through 

Sit beside me in the gentle silence of the truth 

 

All my soul 

An empty bowl of time

Contents consumed 

All too quickly 

But still I hunger 

 

Gravitational potential 

Indefinitely far apart 

Pondering the laws of time 

Through the wounds of a mortal dying heart 

Feeling the years behind me rather than ahead

 

The spread couldn’t make it any weaker

It’s the last bit of weak 

Before the bonds give way  

There was nothing I could do

To stop what was imminent 

 

Rushing over me 

Like a broken dam, waterfall 

Pulling me down

 

Proliferating desperation 

As I sit back alone in realities’ seat

One last sound slips through 

But these words I speak sound weak

 

The color of a man

Fades to a monochromic clone

A live that was once living 

Now but skin and bone breathing into a microphone

 

You look to me as you speak

The breath comes out like meaning

Just as hollow as the music sounds

It fills the room 

But it’s just as empty as you

 

It’s falls like literary commentary

A voice that cracks with reason

I oversimplified my feelings till 

It becomes a lapse of reason 

 

You ask what I’m looking for tonight 

I smile cause I know by the question 

I’m just not going to be you’re type

Cause I didn’t come here 

Looking to be any one night lover

You want to touch my skin but you’ve tapped against my soul

 

I’m approaching you with the pain of my convictions 

I’m landing these words like confessions 

On the runway of a heart not cleared for what’s ahead 

 

Can you control my course seems I have no directions left

As I make every last attempt to land 

On the solidness of your stable ground  

A sum of many faltered parts 

Drifts violently in the winds’ fluctuating motions 

(or is it emotions) 

Buried in the grass

My still heart

Not in Love

Not in love
Just not my type
I lie, looking through the eyes
Of all who question
Cuz I won’t speak, it into existence
I won’t admit it
I won’t be naïve 
Not a good look
On anyone
 
So you try
And you try and you try 
Like pieces of a puzzle 
You can’t put your finger on
So you try
And you try and you try and you try
Hoping to discover 
A clue you can stumble on
 
For years
I’ve been dead silent
Like the calm portends the storm
How can I be honest?
I want to take these secrets to my grave
The subsonic combustion of truth
destroy the lies my mind’s enslaved 
 
I’m worth my weight in gold
I’m worth your heart
I’m worth my words
But I’m not worth your soul
 
So you try
And you try and you try 
Like pieces of a puzzle 
You can’t put your finger on
So you try
And you try and you try and you try
Hoping to discover 
A clue you can stumble on
 
Its dark and dusty 
The wanting soul
And it makes no damn sense 
That there’s even a reflection 
From which I dully glow

Even If

Cones and rods shifted by the light you illuminate 
Could you stand still so my eyes can catch your gaze
Look to me 
You’ll see where I stand
Come to me 
Be part of who I am  
 
Sucking you in through the black hole in my eye
Absorbing you in through the black hole in my eye
Crushing you in through the black hole in my eye
You can’t escape the black hole in my eye
 
You wouldn’t like me even if you could 
You wouldn’t like me even if you could 
I shouldn’t like you  
Even if I could 
 
I look through the black hole in your eye
Looking for the outline of a soul 
I can’t see it, doesn’t mean it’s not there

Just beyond the physics I’m aware
 
Burning like lava
Desire spinning at my core 
Cool surface wanting
Your skin to transfer 
 
You wouldn’t like me even if you could 
You wouldn’t like me even if you could 
I shouldn’t like you  
Even if I could 

I Don’t Know

I don't know  

Much about you
I don't speak
But I speak to you

I don't know
Where you've been
You don't know
The pain I'm in  

My hands on the strings
They can feel what I mean 
They harder I press
The stronger it seems
x2

Now I don't steal
But I like how this feels
Now I won't speak
But it wants to shout

Now she must have told you
To let me go
Don't let her get lonely 
In bed by you

Sounds good in my head 
So I let it play through
My thoughts they fall
To rosewood and spruce

Absorbed in the wood
I'm barring down
But the sound of you
I can't play through